i try my best, day to day, to remain postive about the state of the world, things that happen in my neighborhood, as well as humankind in general.
it is a sucky world. awful things happen all the time, but i like to delude myself into thinking that people, for the most part are good and manage as best they can to maneuver through direct or residual effects of the shitstorms of everyday life.
sadly, it isn't really that way.
people often do the wrong thing, instead of the right one. people are often ignorant, stupid and mean. people fuck up royally and then bulldoze through the consequences of their actions, rather than trying to make anything right or even consider that they were ever wrong.
this pisses me the fuck off. this is not a good thing.
there are a small handful of beings on this planet i love with my entire being. fuck with them, and if there is ANYTHING i can do about it: be prepared for figurative throat crushing under my feet clad with a pair of very scary boots.
i'm psyching myself up to commence throat crushing soon. in the meantime, i'm just heartbroken.
beyond all of that, there are things to be happy about and look forward to -- wallace seems to have a decent amount of freelance work right now. i'm hopeful that things will pick up even more in that realm soon. my parents are going to be here in less than two weeks, for thanksgiving.
and, i have lots to do, beyond worrying about hating the world as it exists outside my door. throwing myself into my own projects and listening to music loudly seems to help with that immensely anyway.
i'm doing the best that i can.