wallace and i had an interesting conversation late last night about our future. we are either the most deluded pair in history, or we maybe we might actually have something.
too many things to ponder. too many considerations to be evaluated. i'd be really excited, if not for so many other unknown factors which rule our day to day life. we'll see.
spring must be getting close, as i seem to be itching for some big project to undertake.
'sted has me day-dreaming of exotic places and people as she leaves for europe in only a few short days.
we also got yummy coffee in the mail today. i can't wait to try it. i love having clients and friends who actually grow coffee. it doesn't get much better than this.
oh man, and it was good.
granted, all of my problems are not solved. i have not erased much of my stress, nor have i been exceedingly productive -- but, i'm feeling blissfully good.
today was a small simple gift from someone somewhere to me.
i am here in atlanta, and we are prone to some really funky weather from time to time. sometimes it's a curse, and other times a blessing... like today. for no good reason -- beyond the meteorologic reasoning that i don't profess to understand -- it was a glorious, breezy, sunny and 70 degree day.
and, it turned out to be just what i needed.
i opened all the windows in the house. then i spent much of the afternoon and evening on the deck with savannah; giggling, dancing and listening to music together.
this will be a day i'll remember one day years from now, when savannah is unhappy with me. gods, how i am torn between wanting my child to grow and become the beautiful and independant woman she will be, and wanting her to remain my sweet, innocent and unspoiled child filled with unconditional love, affection and joy.
i will remember her and i singing together, her dancing and giggling with her daddy and her thoughtfully sitting next to me at the table, talking about this and that. i will remember her sweet kisses, her perfectly stunning eyes and just how it felt to have her small arms wrapped around my neck, hugging me tightly.
i am so thankful for this day. i am so thankful to be feeling good for a change. and, i am thankful to have all that i do.
i am ready for tomorrow. and more ready to take it on happily, than i was yesterday.
let's hope tomorrow is a good day, too.