June 28, 2001

escapism

too many things to do and not enough time.

still no real news on the job front for wallace. some freelance stuff is still trickling in. i'm still hopeful. gods, this job market sucks...

we're getting ready to go on vacation. we're meeting my parents, my sister and my nephew in myrtle beach, south carolina for just short of a week's worth of time at the beach. i'm glad to be going, but it does bother me a bit that we don't have a lot of things happening right now.

things have otherwise been uneventful. savannah fills most days with her good-cheer and laughter, and so many more words. she's a little social butterfly -- apparently unlike either of her parents in that regard. and her new favorite word is 'ewww!' it's the cutest thing to hear.

i've actually been spending a lot of my time reading, and listening to music. i just read the green mile, by stephen king. also on my list right now is bag of bones, house of leaves, fight club, the mists of avalon and sex and the city.

i also just bought the duran duran greatest hits album, as well as depeche mode's singles '86-'98 album. and, i've been listening to both, loudly -- aching to write. although, as i write this, i only hear the teletubbies muted in the background.

i love how listening to duran duran instantly transports me back to my goofy middle school days. and, i want to sing loudly (and badly) along with them. it makes me giggle, and for a few minutes i forget that wallace doesn't have a (full-time) job, or that we have bills to pay, or even that it's almost been twenty years since these songs were popular. it feels good. it feels damn good.

depeche mode makes me think of my days in college. i had heard them a little before them, but can't say that i really started loving them until i was attending edinboro. my (psycho-twisted) roomate, kelley(lisa) liked them. it was an unexpected point of coolness that i have to give to her, and her like for depeche mode has stayed with me.

gods, how i love driving in the car, with the stereo blasting enjoy the silence or personal jesus, screaming the lyrics and banging the steering wheel. it's a simple thing, really. it just feels so ... empowering, or something.

anyway, i've been looking for ways to escape lately, but reality keeps coming back to bite me in the ass. it's not quite that bad, exactly ... but i don't want to keep thinking and worrying about it all.

i hope that ocean will help to wash some of it away.

Posted by lara at 01:23 PM | Comments (0)

June 05, 2001

getting on with it

i keep hoping/wishing/wanting to have some news to report here, but it just isn't happening yet. so, in an effort to just get on with it, i wanted to just say hello or something.

no news on the job front as of yet, for wallace. he has been lucky enough to score some freelance work here and there, but nothing full-time or permanent. i don't mind the freelance, because savannah and i have both really enjoyed having wallace here at home for a change. but, we could really use the insurance, and stability.

savannah's vocabulary seems to be exploding. she's (usually, heh) a joy to be around and is so much fun. i love these glimpses at her budding personality and new-found sense of self. she's so perceptive and bright. we're lucky parents, for sure.

we're also in the middle of preparations for my family's visit. i'm so excited that my sister and nicholas are coming with my parents this time too. they are staying with us this time, now that we have the room. so, that will be interesting all in and of itself.

and, right now, i should be cleaning... but savannah and i are looking at pictures of pooh bear and otherwise being giggly and silly.

i am looking forward to being able to resume playing the sims sometime soon, and hoping that our summer will turn out to be a good one. i still hopeful that things will work themselves out of this limbo soon.

Posted by lara at 03:07 PM | Comments (0)