yesterday i took savannah to see her pediatrician. she's very cool and nice, and has helped me to take good care of my daughter. she's been proactive in her care. she's been thoughtful in regard to me, as well as how she treats savannah when we go to see her.
plus, she knows just what a blubbering-mass-of-jello mom i can be when there is the slightest possibility that there might be something wrong with savannah. and she lets me cry. she listens. and she tells me often what a good job i'm doing for savannah to be as healthy, happy and thriving as she is these days. i'm so glad she is our pediatrician.
anyway, yesterday was a re-check for her. she was measured for her length (32 inches) and head circumference. she was weighed (19.8 lbs.) and generally checked over by our ped.
she's actually on the right side of the growth curve for her height. she's still small, but within the 5th percentile on the curve. her weight, on the other hand, is not quite the same. she's on the wrong side of the curve for that. i guess she's similar to what a 9 month old would weigh. yeah, she's gonna be two at the end of march. and she eats just about anything she wants at this point... but, they want to see if she can gain any more weight.
she had to have some blood tests done yesterday. we wandered over to the lab, and i started biting my lip and holding my breath. can i just tell you how much i hate having to watch (and help) someone hurt my child? i had to help hold her down, as they got ready to take her blood.
i felt the tears welling up as i watched her, and her sweet face right before they started... and she didn't cry. she didn't fuss or whimper or anything. i had to change my position to see if they had actually put the needle into her arm yet or not. and, i know i gulped, blinked back my own tears and was amazed as i continued to talk to her as reassurance.
she is the most amazing and special child i've ever met. and oh, how lucky i am that i'm her mommy!
the nurse was amazed as well. and kept telling me so as i was getting her dressed to leave.
the tests themselves were to determine if there was some other reason that our ped was missing to realize why savannah isn't gaining a lot of weight. she's normal and totally fine they tell me. the only other test they wanted to do concerned a urine sample.
that is an undertaking we haven't quite accomplished yet, which probably deserves time all unto itself.
we're back around to the question of savannah's life? is there something wrong or is this normal for her. we're all about normal for her.
i love you, sweet pea. and you make me so proud to be your mama.
have a great weekend, everyone!
it's 'sted's birthday today!
happy birthday, dear! i'm sorry i'm thousands of miles away and won't be able to share it with you. but i hope you have a wonderful day, just the same. love you!
i haven't been playing the sims all this time. really. i haven't.
i've been trying to organize our life. getting ready for some big changes. trying to pay attention to my own health. shopping online. enjoying some quality time spent with savannah and wallace. getting awfully excited about planning savannah's second birthday party. reflecting on the reality of my own upcoming 28th birthday. doing laundry. and daydreaming, quite a lot. and just thinking, about this and that.
i'm sad that i won't be able to celebrate 'sted's birthday with her. i don't know what she'll end up doing to celebrate, but i know how much i will be thinking of her, and missing her all the same. that doesn't have much to do with her birthday, as i'm often thinking of her and missing her... but, now that i'm thinking of it, i've only actually celebrated one of her birthdays physically with her. and that was her 21st. that was seven years ago. time flies, wow.
we're once again looking and hoping like hell to find a house to rent, instead of staying in this stupid apartment any longer. i need the change; we've lived in our current apartment almost 2.5 years. and, considering we've moved seven times in seven years together, i'm restless for a change of scenery, to say the least.
in addition to the need for a change, i want more space, desperately. currently, we live in a two bedroom apartment, about 1300 sf. our behemoth computer desk has taken over our bedroom. and, our closets are almost bursting. i have to say i will miss the location of our current apartment and i will miss our screen porch, but i need more space.
keep your fingers crossed for us, please.
we took savannah to a park this past saturday, and had a very nice time. it's indescribably cool to me to see her doing normal little kid things. granted, she has no idea how to climb anything yet, or how to maneuver stairs, but she loves being outside... which is all the more reason to be sitting here, pining for a house with a yard, etc. (there is no place for her to go safely play here. and i friggin' hate that.)
i also went to the doctor on monday. i need more medicine apparently, as my blood pressure was way up again. i hoping this will do it. i know that people say that having high blood pressure has no symptoms, but i can feel it when things aren't right with me. and, i'm looking forward to it going away.
i can feel spring around the corner, and although my surest sign of it has not yet appeared, i'm waiting for it anxiously. i know that 'sted has a good idea of spring in the south, even more interestingly in her particular case, spring in the south while on perception-altering drugs... i particularly like the description of the southern belle of a day. and, most of the time, it seems like a blink before it is over. those days turn oppressively hot and humid all too quickly here, too. but, i love the fact that spring begins generally at the end of february, beginning of march here... and considering i spent a large part of my birthdays braving snow storms while living in pennsylvania; this is a welcome change.
i want to be able to open our windows, and breathe the fresh air... i want to enjoy those bright days filled with the scents of blossoming dogwoods and magnolias. and, because of the placement and design of our windows, i dare not do it here. yet another reason to want to move before those days of spring are over. and, i moved to atlanta during the oppressively hot. that day during the first week of october now 3.5 years ago, which was still hanging tightly to the summer. i remember how i thought i would melt before we finished.
so, i'll just sit here daydreaming some more... i'm waiting for something to happen, but i'm not good at waiting. daydreaming is compensation in the meantime, but patience is not a virtue of mine.
my life is just full of this and that, these days.
gods, where have you been?
i've been busy.
yeah, they already know about your life... what the hell could you be busy with?
well, i met this couple...
excuse me?
yeah, i met this couple. and i've been spending all of my time with them. i like them both a lot.
what does your husband think of this?
he's been away, too. he's been busy with some people of his own.
what the hell?
yeah. i keep wanting to stop, but i can't help it.
if you're having such a good time, why do you want to stop?
well, when i'm with them all throughout their day, and while they sleep too... i feel like i should walk away, but i can't. i want to spend all of my time with them. my house is a mess and i haven't gotten a lot done.
this sounds like a problem.
i'm exhausted, but i need to finish this up... so i can get back.
get back?
yeah. i left them a little while ago to check my email, but i need to get back.
wow, you do need help. do you have anything else you want to say before you go running back to these people?
yes. if you need to reach me, i'm spending all my time with the sims, and i don't know when i'll be back. michael just started a fire in the kitchen, and lisa doesn't want to take a bath, damnit. any good house design suggestions can me sent to me by email.