wow, it's yucky outside. relatively cold, wet and slightly windy. it makes parts of me sore, and overall me just generally miserable.
i used to laugh at people who talked about aches and pains flaring up when it rained. i'm not laughing anymore.
my back hurts, but it usually hurts when it's sunny outside too. and then there's my strange feet...
i have big weird feet. they are bigger than anyone else's in my family, except for my dad. they are big and strange and difficulty-prone.
i will not wear shoes unless i have to, and am constantly barefoot in my house. i used to care a lot about the shoes i wore, when i actually wore them. i gave up sneakers for almost a decade, and would wear black heavy-duty boots constantly. i wore them with pants, shorts, dresses (when i wore them) and everything else. i loved them, and my feet almost always hurt.
last january, i had surgery on my left foot. i had finally gone to see a podiatrist, to see if he could repair the most troublesome aspect of either of my feet: a rock-like anomaly embedded in the middle of the ball of my foot. his suggestion was for surgery, to both remove previously mentioned anomaly, as well as correcting the positioning of the bones in that area to avoid aggravating it further in the future.
so i said, 'sure! let's do it! anything to make it possible to walk on the bottoms of both feet again, without pain.'
so, right after new year's, i went. outpatient surgery. knocked me out, did their stuff, wrapped my foot up, sent me home. i couldn't walk on it. something happened and, i had to have half of it done again the next friday. they had to add another pin to the bone, make sure it was place properly. and then, they put a cast on my foot, all the way up to my knee.
i hope to never have a broken bone. casts are evil, horrible, uncomfortable things. i didn't have enough drugs to let me not care about the cast on my foot. i hated it, passionately. and, i had to wear it for over a month.
after all, this was in the interest of making my foot less of a problem, right? it should all come out okay in the end... we hope?
after the cast, i received a removable cast/boot. it had a little pump in it, to pump it up (like those crazy sneakers!) and make sure it fit snugly. and, i still wasn't supposed to walk on it.
it was bothersome, for someone barely 29 to have ride in those little motorized carts for 3 months, in the grocery store, in target. i never bothered going to anywhere like sam's club during those 3 months. i was afraid i'd be there for a whole day, or even worse have one of those things decide to stop running while i was in the back of the store or something.
savannah, on the other hand, thought they were great. she couldn't understand why mommy didn't ride in them after the three months were over. i think she still misses riding on mommy's lap in the motorized cart, rather than having to sit in the one mommy pushes instead.
anyway, after all of this, my foot still hurts. not all the time. and, not in the same way... but it does still hurt. and, it seems to hurt the worst on days that it rains.
no one needs to remind me how i am turning 30 at the end of the week. although, the forecast does not mention rain on friday, so i hope i'll feel less like 30 by then.
Posted by lara at March 17, 2003 01:22 PM