i haven't been playing the sims all this time. really. i haven't.
i've been trying to organize our life. getting ready for some big changes. trying to pay attention to my own health. shopping online. enjoying some quality time spent with savannah and wallace. getting awfully excited about planning savannah's second birthday party. reflecting on the reality of my own upcoming 28th birthday. doing laundry. and daydreaming, quite a lot. and just thinking, about this and that.
i'm sad that i won't be able to celebrate 'sted's birthday with her. i don't know what she'll end up doing to celebrate, but i know how much i will be thinking of her, and missing her all the same. that doesn't have much to do with her birthday, as i'm often thinking of her and missing her... but, now that i'm thinking of it, i've only actually celebrated one of her birthdays physically with her. and that was her 21st. that was seven years ago. time flies, wow.
we're once again looking and hoping like hell to find a house to rent, instead of staying in this stupid apartment any longer. i need the change; we've lived in our current apartment almost 2.5 years. and, considering we've moved seven times in seven years together, i'm restless for a change of scenery, to say the least.
in addition to the need for a change, i want more space, desperately. currently, we live in a two bedroom apartment, about 1300 sf. our behemoth computer desk has taken over our bedroom. and, our closets are almost bursting. i have to say i will miss the location of our current apartment and i will miss our screen porch, but i need more space.
keep your fingers crossed for us, please.
we took savannah to a park this past saturday, and had a very nice time. it's indescribably cool to me to see her doing normal little kid things. granted, she has no idea how to climb anything yet, or how to maneuver stairs, but she loves being outside... which is all the more reason to be sitting here, pining for a house with a yard, etc. (there is no place for her to go safely play here. and i friggin' hate that.)
i also went to the doctor on monday. i need more medicine apparently, as my blood pressure was way up again. i hoping this will do it. i know that people say that having high blood pressure has no symptoms, but i can feel it when things aren't right with me. and, i'm looking forward to it going away.
i can feel spring around the corner, and although my surest sign of it has not yet appeared, i'm waiting for it anxiously. i know that 'sted has a good idea of spring in the south, even more interestingly in her particular case, spring in the south while on perception-altering drugs... i particularly like the description of the southern belle of a day. and, most of the time, it seems like a blink before it is over. those days turn oppressively hot and humid all too quickly here, too. but, i love the fact that spring begins generally at the end of february, beginning of march here... and considering i spent a large part of my birthdays braving snow storms while living in pennsylvania; this is a welcome change.
i want to be able to open our windows, and breathe the fresh air... i want to enjoy those bright days filled with the scents of blossoming dogwoods and magnolias. and, because of the placement and design of our windows, i dare not do it here. yet another reason to want to move before those days of spring are over. and, i moved to atlanta during the oppressively hot. that day during the first week of october now 3.5 years ago, which was still hanging tightly to the summer. i remember how i thought i would melt before we finished.
so, i'll just sit here daydreaming some more... i'm waiting for something to happen, but i'm not good at waiting. daydreaming is compensation in the meantime, but patience is not a virtue of mine.
my life is just full of this and that, these days.